But when I was 19, things changed. I took out loans, and my money was always gone quickly. I confessed everything to my parents, and together we went to a support organization. Still, I didn’t take it seriously back then. I thought I could solve it by myself. For five years, things went well. I didn’t gamble and I met my girlfriend.
About a year and a half ago I started again. It looked harmless at first, with small bets, but soon I was losing a lot of money again. I started lying and lost myself completely. I had dark thoughts and even thought it might be better if I wasn’t here anymore. I stood at a crossroads: either I end my life, or I tell the truth.
In the end, I chose to be honest. It was terrifying because I was afraid to lose everyone I loved. But the opposite happened: my girlfriend stayed with me, and my parents supported me. Their presence gave me strength. Ending my life was no longer an option — I didn’t want to do that to them.
When I told them, it felt like a heavy burden was lifted from my shoulders. I could sleep again and could think about the next step. With the help of my parents, my girlfriend, and the support at Solutions, I started over. Family days were especially important. My parents better understood what a gambling addiction really is. That helped all of us to get more control over the situation.
During treatment, I also realized that I was drinking too much. I made another choice: I stopped completely. No alcohol, no gambling. That gives me peace. Every day I wake up with a clear head, and that’s a good feeling
Now things are going well. My girlfriend and I are building a house together. Gambling is still part of our lives, but talking about it is exactly what helps me stay strong and keep going.
What has it brought me? Above all, peace in my mind and a clear picture of what I want: a quiet, honest life without secrets.
My advice to others: share your story. It’s the hardest step, but also the most important one. You don’t have to do it alone. Seeking help and being honest gives you strength. Only then can you really take the next step.
